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[forestwatcher]

forestwatcher

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text | un: empyrean | backdated to about Aug 20

[indigently]

Nari, are you there?
I might have done something colossally stupid

[forestwatcher]

Are you injured?

[indigently]

No
No, of course not.
I just..

I, well. I kissed someone.

[forestwatcher]

I see.

And this is a problem..?

1/2

[indigently]

Yeah, I...

We've known each other for a while but recently I started spending more time with him. His partner was sent home from Folkmore.

I haven't pushed for information but... I'm pretty sure they were like you and Cyno. That level of.. together. Commitment. Love.

And I think I really like him, but.. it's a lot, following that.

2/2

[indigently]

[ Then, after a moment, because realistically there's no good time to say what he knows he'll need to say eventually: ]

Also, he's. Um. From Dahri.

[forestwatcher]

From Dahri?

[It takes a second, but there's only one person he knows here who is from that place.]

You're talking about Dainsleif?

[indigently]

[ Crap.

Crap, fuck, shit— ]

I didn't realize you knew him


yeah.

[forestwatcher]

We aren't closely acquainted, but I have been here for a while and he's been by the shop a time or two. He doesn't keep his place of origin a secret.

[indigently]

That..
Yeah, that makes sense. He never did with me either.
Sorry, I guess I distracted myself from the actual point.

I'm kind of scared, `nari.

[forestwatcher]

What are you scared about?

[He can guess, but he'd have Kaveh actually say it.]

[indigently]

[ Urgh. ]

What if I'm getting feelings for someone who doesn't want to let himself go that deep again?
Or what if I'm just a replacement for what he's lost?
Or what if I convinced myself I like him more than I do and I end up hurting him because I can't give him what he needs?
What if I get sent home?
What if he gets sent home?
What if we all get sent home and one of us remembers and the other doesn't?

[forestwatcher]

[... Well, then.]

Have you tried talking to him about any of this?

[indigently]

I can't

[forestwatcher]

You already kissed him, Kaveh.

Do you think it's fair on either of you to ignore that?

[indigently]

No, I know that, I know I can't ignore it
but
there's nothing at all I said to you in that last text that sounded anything like cool and breezy, right?

[forestwatcher]

I'll admit, you are sounding a little unhinged.

1/2

[indigently]

Right, and I can't just put that on him when he's already
you know

2/2

[indigently]

"unhinged" is kinda mean.

[forestwatcher]

And yet entirely accurate.

I suggest you start by taking a few deep breaths. You can't ignore this, so you're going to need to decide your next steps.

[indigently]

[ Ugh.

The thing is... He knows Tighnari is right. He can't ignore this. ]

Okay.
Okay, I can do that.

[forestwatcher]

What is your ideal outcome?

[indigently]

I want him to be happy.

I'd like to be happy too, of course, but. I worry about that first.

[forestwatcher]

[Of course, Kaveh would never worry about his own happiness first.]

And if he was happy with you?

[indigently]

Then
I

[ It takes Kaveh a surprisingly long time to send the rest of the message. His cheeks burn, and he doesn't realize it, but he's smiling. ]

I'd like to see him again. Maybe on a date.